Anticipation

The first week of bew sem had just passed, and the results of last sem is also out. SAD! Study wise, is okay, I feel it had finnaly come. The feel of doing well. The determination is felt. I think this sem will be quite good academically. hopefully consistency will not let me down again. next week, most probably I will have to go for the follow-up surgery to end the problem in my butt once and for all. Possible also will be delayed for another month. Either way, i think i can see the good and bad side of it. Doing it now will end this problem faster, delaying will give me more time to prepare for the pain and trouble i will have to go through. haiz... sorry everyone for making you worried because of my problem. Maybe after all this have end, I will be a better person, learnt how to appriciate the health we have and complain about shortcomings less. In fact i am already learning how to apprciate what I have instead of keep complaining over life's little problems. After i have 100% heal, I will jog 6rounds in the padang. I will go to eat Nandos after planning to go but failed to go for so long. haha..

Thanks my dear for the wonderful night you gave me lst thursday. Love you so much. By the way I m kinda excited for tommrow, i m not sure why but the feel is like dating you for the first time again. The excitment and fresh feeling. hahahah Maybe its because of the things you will wear tommrow? hahahah... Can't wait to see you in skirt. Shit lar... baby you making me damn nervous. Let's see the sunset at the sea one more time okay? this time it will be just you and me. I want to see the sunset with you. I want to do many things with you before another puasa. Haiz.... If the surgery commence, Then have to puasa ler, if not, good for both of us also.

Anyway, I want to tell you again I m not jealous because of your guys-friend. Seriously I m totally okay with it. But just....I also dont know how to explain. sorry my dear for making you having to think about all the riddiles i gave you. Sometimes I feel that you can read my mind. sounds like a miracle? hahaha.. Please stay happy okay?

Practically studying during the first week is damn boring, But have to.