I just realized tonight how important computer programming skills is going to be in my future even though I had never liked programming. And I also realized that we will only call god for help and ask Him for strength only when we are in trouble. Humans are made this way; never appreciating what we have, always asking for more and more. I wish after my problems are over, I will be a better person and appreciate my humble life even more as I had gone through pretty much mental enlightenment recently. Hence, I will set two resolutions (in fact it will be three) for next semester for myself, which will be gamma sem1:
LEARNT JAVA AND BECOME A PRO!!!!!
Hell yea I m going to try this time. I promise my @ss I will. The thoughts of unable to complete my FYP next year due to noob-ness in programming give me shivering jitters. Holy crayton!!!! Already flunked C++ I m going to make sure java won’t be a same scenario. By the way I still owe you a handmade program my dear ^^
END THE PROBLEM IN MY ASS ONCE AND FOR ALL
People used o say “ YOU ARE A PAIN IN THE ASS” you know when you said it, its nice and don’t feel anything, but after going through all this and, I truly and absolutely understand what it means by PAIN IN THE ASS. My beautiful sexy ass. Why must you give me so much trouble? You had drained almost 100% of my strength( mental strength) and spiritual happiness and well being since the past 2months+ And when people think its over, its not!!!!! Far from over! I need to go through fistulatomy. Hopefully, my normal life will be back soon, by gamma sem1, where I don’t need to think about my ass and have more brain capacity to worry about other things. Please my god ( like I said just now we only call to Him when we are in trouble) Please end this for good, I can’t bear the thoughts of going through another mental and physical suffering ordeal anymore. I am a very strong and positive guy, that’s why I had lasted so long. Please. Please, don’t let me experience this anymore….. I don’t know whether I would have the strength for another one. Let be the fistualtomy recovery be the last pain and suffering I have to go through. NO COMPLICATIONS PLZ!!!! ( shit man… I m prepared for this!!)
Actually, these are the basic two major resolutions I had for myself the last one is optional ^^ nolar! Hahahaha the last one is as important as he first two. Which is:
CONTINUE TO LOVE HER AND HOPE SHE LOVES AND ACCEPT MY LOVE
I believe “she” is now quite common when it comes to love and chicken soup for the soul agenda. Sometimes I feel quite bad ler….. for not bothering you sometimes ( no sms-ing and not calling) but my dear Mao Ren, you are in my mind most of the time. So don’t think Wei Ren had neglect you. He will always be there for you. When you need help, or you need anything, need anyone, need financial help, need a hug or a kiss, need someone to “fa xie”, lepas geram,just name it, everything under the sun, please you are very much welcomed to find Wei Ren for anything, and I mean anything ^^
Oh by the way, my sem break was quite okay…. Considering the numbers of “survivors” left here in my hometown. Yeah, yeah, ate like a pig, sleep like a pig, play? Not really like a pig, Futsal, some boring yumcha and supper sessions. No DOTA!! How can that be possible? I haven’t had an LAN game since I came back, this is not right! I will go dota at least once before I have to return to my shithole… By the way, my beautiful Teluk intan had gone through many many changes. Each time I come back there will be something new, like a new building and shits. Wooo! Suddenly felt so proud with the place where I came from. Now is somewhat in the middle of the miserable 2 week holiday. Actually for once I kinda look forward to go back Melaka, miss YOU and miss Dr.Lim (One person I should not be missing) going back soon ler! When will be the result be announced de? Damn tension man!
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