Tiredness made me make a hard decision

Today i had officially made my choice to delay my CISCO CCNA course until my final sem. I think i cant take it anymore. I really tired. I also know this Cisco Certified Network Apperentice certification will help me a great deal next time when i start my working carrer. Hell, everybody knows this. But i also know myself and my situation very well. I cant cope with too many things. The 4 hardcore subjects had already been killing me and drowning me. No one week since the 3rd week of trimester is loose and free. hectic, rushing for mid terms assignments, lab test, quizes.
I can't take it anymore. This situation reflects an old saying: Its like a tiger chasing after two rabbits at one time finally it didnt get any. I m under JPA sponsor. i am using their money, the malaysian tax payer's money.. If i had not accepted this offer, i would not have given a damn about what grades i get in exam because i know they are not important. but now i have responsibilties to them. i cant rest and relax. Hence out of responsibilities, I had choosen to go for the grades. I know many of my coursemates will be laughing at me when i droped Cisco.. they don't understand. I don't wish to explain to them either. I only need to explain to myself.
so from now on, i think i just need to focus on my courses. screw it.....

This saturday is data structure lab test. C++ again...... i can roughly guess what will be the the emotions after that lab test. its already been happening for 2 semsters. good thing this semster is the last semster i will be seeing C++......go to hell after this. Shit! i really cant learnt programming. all the long long codes, is really not my type of game. its not like i have not try. Its just not in me. I like computers alot. but programming is really not my game for christ sakes. Anyway its part of the course, I understand, i will do my best, but i would not enjoy learning it. I will be learning it just for the sake of examination.

Today i m feeling kindda down. haigh! but nevermind..... i will dota tonight..... its been a long time since i played dota. Hopefully i will be fine after dota.